Dear Mom – I Think I Get It Now

Dear Mom,

I think I get it now. 

I get it. I blinked and my first born Stella (your first grandchild) is now 4 and somehow my baby Evva is almost 2, I don’t know, how did this happen. Where did time go?

I get it. The days are short but, the nights are long.  Evva is 22 months and still doesn’t sleep through the night.  But, when I look at her little cherub face, the pain of sleepless nights fades away and once again I find myself awake at 12 am, 2 am, 4 am and just today I was forced to start my day at 5:30 am. Where does time go?

I get it. These are to be the best days of Ange and I’s life. Flying kites in the park, riding bikes around the block, blowing more bubbles than I could ever imagine and exploring everything this beautiful world has to offer, together, as a family. These are the exact moments I know I will wish I could rewind back to when I’m old and grey, sitting on the deck watching my grand children laugh and play while exploring this world together. Where will time have gone?

I get it. Being a mother and a role model for my two little girls is the most important job I have ever had. Stella and Evva have given me a new sense of purpose. They need me just as I need you and the depth and meaning of that is hard to verbalize. It is moments like this that I realize how fortunate I am to have you as my Mom, my friend, my confident and role model. It is days like today, Mother’s Day, that I reflect on my life and realize how lucky I am and how lucky my girls are to have you in their life – colouring, baking, crafting and most importantly loving them, me and our beautiful family unconditionally. Time sure does fly.

I get it. Life is what happens when we are busy making plans. But, it is those plans, those adventures and those life lessons that make up the fabric of our being. I am a better person for having you in my life, my daughter’s have a better and brighter future because of you, their Baba, and there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t realize how much you’ve given, selflessly to our family. I get it now, every moment is precious, the gift of time is invaluable and boy do I plan to seize it.

I got this…because I got you Mom. 

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